Monday, August 5, 2013

Flexibility



Nkimadams The Vitruvian Man

I didn’t receive any funding from the arts council, althought they said they proposal met all the criteria there was just too much competition for funds.
I asked them to send me a list of the projects that were funded and a list of the secondary criteria they use after all the proposals have met the first.

Nikadams Green Ball Express
I must have asked for too much money, and they don't know me (know track record). 

I have to make the project happen, I several great groups of people who are expecting me to give a series of workshops. I have to explain what the new circumstances are (everyone knew I might not get funding) and adjust the scope of the project and get people who can to chip into the materials and other in kind offerings to make it happen.

I’m not sure if 22 years in the US has given me my think big attitude or if I’ve always had it, People warned me, it was a big project to take on, and now it’s a big project with no funding!
Ha Ha ….
Nkimadams Unwavering Balance

Lets see what my thinking big has got me.
·      A lot more work but also a lot more experiences working in this type of action research.
·      Knowledge of the subtle complexities of the Tottenham community
·      Great groups of enthusiastic organisations and community members who see the important of art activities.
·      New and important connections for future work in London and in this community in particular.
·      A new focused workshop plan on ‘Personal geographies’ for my future practice in community work.

As I have been working with each group I have had to be flexible to make sure the project meets any specific goals of focus they have.  Now that I don’t have to follow the agenda set forth in my original proposal, and I have a more clear sense of what each of these groups wants, AND I have had time to reflect more on the core of the project -community art-, I have been able to focus in on the main themes. Self-portraits and Mapping.

Nikadams    Buddah Mind
Over time I’ve learned the value of being flexible, to accommodate the needs of the participants. This is a core skill for my practice.

The bottom line is I just want to see as many people making art in their communities as possible.
The trick is to be flexible enough to offer those involved a ‘bespoke’ spoonful of sugar to help make the medicine go down. 

Procrastination

Nkimadams Dreaming of a White Christmas

I took a great workshop in procrastination with a group of fellow students. It was interesting to see how we all have our own unique forms of procrastination. We all had different but clever tactics to make sure we either don't get our work completed on time in an organised fashion and to the best of our ability.
Reasons?

Fear of Failure
Not being good enough
Not perfect enough
Fear of Success
The core of these issues, we were told by our calm, and compassionate analyst, stem from issues of self esteem.

Procrastination in my case comes from having too much work to do and not being able to focus in, chaos playing havoc. I think the route cause for me is a lack of balance and a capacity to focus.
When I focus in I realise it doesn't take as much time to organise as I had feared, and a little of everything goes a long way.

Planning and visualising are also important to get things organised and relieve the internal chaos.

Nkimadams Dream of Sin


In my special project process, I'm really enjoying the organic nature, being able to be flexible, testing and trying things and getting realistic about what is actually possible (in order to meet an essay deadline).

I did not receive funding from the Arts Council, though they said I met all the criteria... so I guess I'm just an unknown, and may have asked for too much. Now I have to be twice as  resourceful, and pay attention to how I am spending my time more wisely. Procrastination just isn't an option at this point.


NKimadams  Star of Bethlehem

I am drawn to this image as a symbol of my own procrastination, paralysed (this person is actually a dead soldier) I am unable to reach the potential star above.